Cycle day 2 start of stims( stimulation drugs)

So yesterday started AF and today is cycle day number 2. I start Gonal-F injections along with the two tablets of other stuff I started yesterday. Here's hoping for good but not overly response as I don't want OHSS. I'm not worried about the injections themselves, just the side effects.

B leaves in a couple days for a business trip. Worst timing ever but it was dropped in his lap so he doesn't have a choice. Incredibly blessed though as I started two days earlier than expected which I am thrilled with as I have really been stressing about schedule and what to do with the kids since we are doing our cycle in Prague and we live in Germany. But two amazing friends just stepped up and took the kids, I am so thankful and this way B will be able to stay with me the whole time! He will get back two days before we leave for Prague. Crazy that in two weeks from today my babies will be back in and hopefully getting super cozy. We decided on a three day transfer since we aren't worried about egg quality and rates don't vary too much from a 3-day to a 5 day transfer. Also, I don't want to be away any longer than I have to.

A and G are back at school after almost two weeks out with a stomach bug. So happy to only have E this morning.

IVF, puking and craziness.

My kids and I have had a stomach virus for the last two days. My washing machine is exhausted as am I and pets are trying to vacate the house as I am a tad cranky. This just all makes me scream in my head are you CRAZYYYY for doing IVF that could result in two more to add to the chaos? I guess I am. I am routinely exhausted, fed up with my munchkins and feel insane but honestly I love every second of it. Well maybe not the cleaning up pink puke from four separate rooms last night part but you get it. I would love to eat a hot meal with out telling my 6 year old again to use her fork or trying to get my four year old to eat something that isn't a carb or non acidic fruit and get my 1 year old to not dump his food in his water then drink it(gag). But I didn't become a parent to sleep in or go to fancy restaurants or save money. I did it because its the most amazing thing ever, that explains it so well huh?! But really these little people are so incredible, smart, creative, caring, kind and just beautiful inside and out. To have the ability to calm someone down just by touching them is magical, to be taught to laugh when I get an entire squeezable pouch of baby food poured into my bra priceless.Thanks to these little people I am a better woman than I could have ever imagined and I have them and my hot husband to thank for it. So yes, am I crazy absolutely but will it be worth every moment of insanity, without a doubt!

Hi and welcome

My name is Asia. I live in Germany with my husband B and three kids A, G, and E and have for over 4 years. I am an American thirty one year old woman who has dealt with infant loss, pregnancy loss, infertility, PPD and PPA. I live with depression and social anxiety on a daily basis but choose not to let it define me. I believe in God and choose to believe that I can make this world a better place even if in a very small way. I am currently about to start my first and hopefully last IVF cycle to complete our family in Prague, CZ.  I am excited and terrified of this journey. My life is not normal or boring or simple but I wouldn't have it any other way. Well, honestly simpler maybe. I am sarcastic and brutally honest so hang on to your seats. Living in a foreign country is hard but I am grateful to be here and be experiencing the things most just dream about. I am blessed with love, welcome to my journey maybe it can entertain you or help you with your own. I welcome comments and will gladly respond to questions.

*And, yes I am freakishly white.